zilch.

that's pretty much how i feel today. zilch. i just cannot seem to get myself motivated at all today. it is trully such a bummer because today is sam's day off. and did we do magical fun family things? nope. nada. nothing.

monday i was in a mad dash to finish a special bag (blog to come on this later) and then spent the evening embroidering at Starbucks with the gals in the sewing class i'm a member of. then tuesday was full of spending time with my sister-in-law, and then a baby check up for henry, and then dinner and games at the in-laws.

so maybe today i am just mentally burnt out? yesterday i was overloading my brain with homeschooling curriculum... just don't know what i want to do!

and then today, overloading my brains with all the various different things i could do from home to earn some extra money for our family.

so sometime around 12 i just mentally collapsed. couldn't figure out anything to do with our day, nothin.

its frustrating. but i'm not quite sure how to just snap my fingers and get out of this funk.

maybe i will get a sudden burst of energy tonight? sam's opening, so i should have a fair amount of my evening to myself.

argh, i hate days like this.

but, my baby is smiling and kicking his legs high in the air in glee. and i just enjoyed a chocolate chip cookie. and someone else is making dinner tonight. so, things are looking up a bit.

kimono and bloomers.

here's a finished project.  this was part of my friend Jana's baby shower gift.  i have made this kimono now 3 times.  it continues to be a thorn in my side, and i am really not so sure if it is as cute as i hoped it would be.  however, i really do like the way the little bloomers like with the top. it is an easy enough project to sew, but i am on the look out for another baby outfit to make.

also: i really need to find a better way/light/place to take pictures of what i sew! any suggestions?

saturday stash

1 of 3.

i have 3 separate fabric stashes to blog about.  i am so behind!

so be prepared for this saturday stash, a sunday stash, and perhaps a monday stash blog.

but, fabric is so wonderful it just must be shared.  

i bought 1 yard of each, well i didn't really buy it- it was technically my mother's day gift from a few weeks ago- but i got to pick it out!  and since i have gone and bought another 2 1/2 yards of the purple.  all of it is from the Linden Fabric line, and i am seriously bummed because there were 3 other fabrics that went in line with this, and i cannot find it anymore.  this is the problem with waiting to buy fabric when it is clearance (4.49 a yard as opposed to 9)

i am using the purple for a dress for me, and for mason.

the other 3? not quite sure yet.... so many possibilities.

instead.

five things i should be doing instead of blogging while watching law and order.

1) sewing.  i have a dress to finish smocking, a skirt to make an elastic casing for, a log cabin square to complete, and i am sure i could think of something else i could be sewing.

2) reading.  i am in the middle of 5 different books, and i would like to actually finish one of them.

3) cleaning.  there are dishes that should be cleaned.

4) diaper laundry.  in fact, i will need to post this and get up and start that laundry, before it gets to late.

5) talking with my husband.  we are just so brain-drained right now.  he's had a hard time re-adjusting to being at work and his responsibilities as a husband and father.  his stress gives me stress.  and even though the two older kids are at his parents, we have basically just collapsed in mental and physical exhaustion.  i need to think of something we should do, or i'll be watching him play with his laptop and his blackberry- simultaneously.

amazing

last night i witnessed something amazing.

after a huge bbq for a ton of families from our church and community, sam and i were busy bees cleaning up the aftermath.  well all afternoon long the clouds in the sky had loomed over us, almost daring us to continue on with our bbq.  so as we quickly brought all the food and tables in and prepared to load up and head home (we were at sam's parents- their yard in unbelievable) sam was prepping to take a load of bags out to our van.  it was then that he yelled for me to hurry outside.

so his parents and i (and henry in tow) ran outside.

in the sky was the most unbelievable lighting display i had ever witnessed in my life.  the lighting was striking all over the sky, and one flash of light would literally explode one second on top of the next.

we stood out in the yard, watching this amazing display of God's Awesome power for almost an hour.  sam had ran in to get Campbell (who was at first confused why we weren't watching Cars- you know, Lightning McQueen?)

the lightning continued to get bigger and brighter, and eventually we started to hear thunder.

so we buckled everyone in, and followed the lighting show to our house, where we actually parked at the school close to our home to watch the sky explode even more.

and then the rain came.  

probably not the best timing that by the time we got ourselves home the storm was literally right above us, dumping tremendous- soak you the second you stand in it, rain.  not great for unloading 3 over tired kids.

but everyone was a good sport, i mean- this was just amazing.

so we put the little ones down, and turned off every light in our house (including computer screens) and sam and i just watched as our house was illuminated by flashes of lighting that were literally coming from every single window in our house.

i had never witnessed anything like this, and i can't imagine i will anytime soon.  the lighting was still going on when i was nursing henry at 2 am.

i wish there had been a way i could have captured some of this on film, but i didn't. instead it will remain a memory that will burn in my heart.

all i could think while watching this storm, was that this lightning storm must have somehow resembled what Creation was like.  

Absolute, controlled chaos, exploding all over the sky.

more of a wednesday when

a few days ago i noticed that the bare tree in my front yard had grown beautiful green leaves all over its branches.  and then yesterday i glanced out my kitchen window to see the tree in my back yard was also adorned with bright green leaves.

when did this happen?

how, over the last 2 months did i completely miss the season of spring?

was it due to the record highs, and crazy lows? (the weekend before Henry was born, it was 90 degrees on a Friday, and was snowing on a Sunday)

or perhaps my constant staring at my little new baby for the last 2 months would be the best reason for how i somehow completely missed the new buds forming on branches and flowers slowly starting to bloom.

however, the absence of spring from my vision is most likely contributed to the fact that sam and i do not garden (and rarely mow our lawn) so it has really just been jungle/swamp season here.

however, summer is arriving.

since starting this post, i have come up with many other wednesday why's:

~why can't my son pull his own pull-up down?

~why won't my daughter eat the beautiful lunch i have prepared for her?

~why would my husband leave a milk cup in our bedroom (after having claimed to clean the room) only to have mason find the milk this morning and drink some of its spoiled nastiness.

~why is mason still whining instead of eating?

~why is henry chiming in?

still, summer is arriving.  and in spite of the heat (which i don't love) i am excited for the opportunity to be outside with the kids a little more.  they sure do love the sunshine.

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