time for myself

at a baby shower yesterday, i found myself surrounded by school teachers.  school teachers seem to just know how to party.  that really do know how to relax and have a good time.

but i did find myself in a slightly awkward position.

i tend to get a lot of wide eyes when people find out i am the mom of 3 under 3.  the look of panic and concern and disbelief, and then pity.

sure it is challenging, but i do believe that the Lord doesn't give us more than we can handle.  and we sometimes don't realize that until we are in the situation.  i know i can handle this.  i may not feel that way everyday, but i know i can.

anyways, that is not what this post is about.

its about having someone tell me that "when your kids are in school, you'll have more time to yourself."

hmmm.  if i had wanted time for myself, i wouldn't have had children.  i had children because i wanted to have them, and i stay at home full time because i want to give them  my time.

i love having a little free time, used to blog, sew, watch tv with Sam, or play wii, or enjoy my friends.

but i love being home.  

please redirect me to this post on days that are hard and horrid.

but i do love being home.

and i am going to home school.  i am so excited about it.  committed to it.

and committed to raising children that will know the Lord, and i pray- will love Him.

and raising children who will be happy and content.  who will then spend time doing things they love, which will give me "time for myself" to do things i love.

i don't need school for time for myself.

i need discipline, and flexibility in myself.

and lots of prayer.